it's already the middle of september. time is flying by, and i don't know how to cope with it. soon i'll be enveloped in the pain of the deep freeze of winter. it will feel like a lifetime of suffering. the seasons that aren't winter are great, but winter is the season with the most dominant personality. winter is the person in the conversation who won't let you say anything, but keeps talking about himself the whole fucking time. you try to get a few words in, but everything you say is always diverted back into another aspect of the saga of winter. it's pointless to resist it's all powerful grasp. you cannot escape. summer is awesome because there are no winter like qualities, but for some reason i think of summer as being a small rest stop on the long road back toward the pain of winter. summer is to be savored because it doesn't last too long. spring is okay, but it always takes so long to become spring-like, that i just think of it as a way for winter to fuck with your mind for a little longer. fall is my favorite, but its glories are so fleeting that if you happen to be really busy, you won't even notice that it's gone from the sweetest weather ever to a snowing frozen wasteland outside, and it may as well be winter. i'm kind of freaking out about winter. i should not be thinking about it at all, but i can't help myself. i hate it. i don't even think i like the first snow anymore. the first snow can go fuck itself. i want to be comfortable, and i don't want to wear a huge cumbersome coat. i think i should move away from here.
also, i believe that the longest and most painful day of the week is monday.
i totally want to leave this place right now.
sincerely,
jim
3 comments:
Something that is great is that you don't have to live there at all. I would tell you to move here but I have a couple of reasons why you shouldn't. 1) As the state's governor said in 1971: "Come visit us again and again. This is a state of excitement. But for heaven's sake, don't move here to live." 2) You would probably find something here that you would dislike. But if you did move here it would be awesommme. Or at least visit.
a state of excitement. that sounds... exciting. i do plan on visiting eventually, i just can't say when. it will happen someday.
i realize i don't have to live here, but it's so easy to stay here while constantly bitching. a move to holland is more likely than a move to the west coast at this point, but i'm pretty sure i would get sick of the grayness of holland real fast. is it constantly gray in oregon for 6 to 9 months of the year?
Jesus it is grey right now. I am working in environmental education at this time and my job is from 6.45am to 11.30pm, and this week it rained all day long every single day. I don't know how that happened. But it did. So maybe you wouldn't like that. However, Portland is just wonderful so please do come by some time. Also food is delicous here!
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